Is life worth living?
Hi, I know this sounds depressing, but I’m only 26, and honestly l wouldn’t mind just dying (no, I don’t mean I plan on killing myself, so don’t worry about that).
I’m a first year Grad student, and I hate it. I don’t hate the program, and I actually love what I’m studying, but I feel so burnt out (I just finished a double undergrad major in Math and Geography), and I’m scared. What complicates the situation is my less than positive relationship with my research advisor. I don’t even trust her anymore.
I keep telling myself “it’s only two years,” but then I begin to stress out about the “what will I do with the degree” problem. I am terrified of being stuck in a cubicle working for some faceless corporation and kissing the man’s *** for the rest of my life! I feel like the only reason why I am going to school is to keep that from happening.
And then all I see online is about how screwed my generation is, and how none of us are going to survive in the working world. I never had a trust fund, never had heath insurance, never really had parents, and yet I made it through college. I feel like I have always had something to look forward up to this point, but now it feels more and more like that thing is death.
I am so scared of my future. I don’t feel like I can take another day of Grad School, but if the alternative is worse, I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost, so hopeless. I value life, and I have no plan of doing anything harmful, but I need to feel like I have something to look forward, and I don’t anymore.
I know I’ve asked this question before, but I’m starting to get desperate. I have a really hard time getting out of bed in the morning. I’ve had multiple check ups with doctors and they all give me a clean bill of health. I really think it’s straight out depression. I feel trapped in my life now, and that I have no choice of what I can do. It’s just getting worse and worse. Sometimes, I just feel like disappearing.
Is life worth living, should I vanish?
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- Harbans answered 3 years ago
Really, after reading your description about yourself, I can say, with high degree of certainty that you can be a very good writer. The flow of language and the style, if one reads between the lines, is obviously very lucid, vivid and easy to follow even by a person of less intelligence. Young lady cheer up. Do not think about future, care for your today, which is at your hand. Your future will be taken care of. And also, do not compare yourself with better offs than yourself. Think of the people who are worse off than yourself. You are having every element of yours in perfect cohesion and there is nothing wrong in your constitutional self. Take some positive lessons in spirituality. Keep the company of Christ in your daily life. Think that He is a guiding force for you. When He is with you, you can be assured of better than the best life in the coming day and years to come. So forget your past bad events or anything harsh that has transpired in your life. Bad events even if leave their imprints in us but we have to scrub them off of day-to-life and start with a clean slate. So, cheer up, brace up and never think of negative things in life. You are bestowed with a beautiful life to live for and not to waste it off. Spent your time helping others in your own way and have some positive hobbies. Your time will pass peacefully and cheerfully. GOD BLESS. *
Life is what we make of it. It can be a cake walk, if we make it so, can be intractable, if we do not want to live keeping in mind the imponderables that are necessary. It depends onus, if we make a mountain of a molehill, or take any situation as a challenge to pounce on that challenge and win. Or may be we may not succeed in our attempt(s) yet we have to try again till we attain our goal. That is the life worthliving. This challenge could be sorting out of relationships, sorting out problems at home or at work place or any contingency that may arise spontaneously.
In life, we have to be ready for any contingency, and the will to fight should spring from our inner being but with the faith that in all our endeaours, our CREATOR is always there to come to our help at the right moment. Then why fear. Just make life a cakewalk rather than intractable and complex. Depends on us which way to take.
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Thank you! Unfortunately, I think all that life is is working for the man in a stupid cubicle 😥
It’s just a shame that all the cool stuff about life being unique and meaningful while I was in school was just a load of crap! The real world sucks!